http://youtu.be/KYV1sp375wc

The MOST MOTIVATIONAL VIDEO ever!!!

I often turn to basketball videos when I need to be pumped up. When I feel fear or insecurity.
When I am doubting myself cause I really don't know what's next.
I know what's working. I see this life I'm dreaming up, unfolding...
I know I'm moving forward and I'm moving fast.
I know where I've been and I know that I trust myself...

but it's still freaking scary! 

Every box in my home is packed and in a week I am going to the home I envisioned and the school I dreamed for Max.
I question if it's even real.
How the hell is this even happening? I'm doing this?

I think about my first night in the new place, alone...

Breathe. 

I'm freaking scared, it doesn't matter how awesome it feels.  It doesn't matter that every time I make little visits to my "new life" as I pack up and purge my "old life" I feel as though I'm floating on a cloud.  Songs like "Somewhere over the Rainbow" and "Swingin on a Star" play.  A soccer ball literally rolled to my feet across a field when absolutely no one was around. I'm sincerely questioning my sanity.

Change is just scary and uncomfortable. Releasing old fears and self doubts- releasing old "stories"
takes constant work.

So- I found this video tonight cause I was wigging out again.

Now I'm like yeah!!! Yeahhh!!! Yesssss!!!!
I have no idea what tommorrow brings but I got this. 

You can too. I hope it inspires you too.

LOVE LOVE LOVE

-S